sickenningg ass doctorss with no remorsee bluhkkkkk

okayy now im a veryy nocturnall personn..but withh getting my eyeballs cut openn thats a little weird to fall asleep on.

now im justt so like over active on my thoughtts just rushingg crazzyy in my fukenn mind..like i kan sayy im goinn crazyy
y.?

the doctor onn my lastt visitt b4 the scheduling of the surgeryy basically told me out of all patientss 91 see thatt perfecttly..and then 9% are life threatening.

so i str8 out and flat out asskedd himm..wat are the odds ur sayingg he said 1 in 65 ppl
& then he saidd "its been about 70-80 ppl that didnt have it that i operatedd on"

basically im scaredd for my life...im meen its like fukk this shit cud relyy end my life
but its veryy rare he said for anythingg to be like actual life threatening
so im like mellow for like the first 5 dayss
now that its the night b4 its like wat if that chance happens to me
now its onlyy just my consciencee bullshitting, and im tryna thinkk positive but fukk
i cud relyy diee?

that problemm reignss on my mind...i meen its like a rushh of adrenaline i have right now my handss on some reel are actually shakingg my heartss throbbing to where it feels like my skinss splittingg, my bloods rushingg so high it feels like rats are crawlingg thru my veignss, i hearr everyythingg like i was a dead spirit watchingg my own funerall

like thiss shit is relyy not a game rightt noww...i kan actually sayy im jusss a lill bitchh scared bout it.

that beingg said with the thought of havingg ur eyeball splitt open & just talkedd about like ur onlyy goingg for a routine chekk up

i meen doctors are fukenn psycho's they dont cringee cutting someones head openn& watchingg blood gush out in surgeryyy& theyy dont cringgee putting a drill in someones head cutting it completelyy open

i meen shitt...its a scaryy feelings kinda knowingg ur eyes are just gunna get slicedd openn & just perfectlyy fine with no problemms fidling with there eyeball muscless..i meen i cud get like an STD or something?

lmao naa...but i can concludee to a hole wen i sayy i am a little worriedd.