8.26.2009

do i really "love you"?

in that time we were together, no doubt i wud have never qustioned my love for you bkus i new it was there. when i said "i love you" i truelly ment it in that moment and time that we both shared.
but now that we parted ways, i start to wonder...do i really love you?
i no most say i love you but im not in love with you.
but i love my mother & wen "i love you" is said from me to her, its an unconditional meaning type of love
i truely dont love you, bkus "i love you" is a forever thingg.
my mother always told me love for your family is different for your friends and lovers
but...is it really?
i mean wen i tell my mothr or my family i love you, i mean alot of care behind it
and it felt the same when i told you, just not as strong.
i didnt mean to hurt you, when i told you i dont love you anymore.
i just really thought about "us" and it wasnt love....but it was 2 ppl enjoying one anothers companyy.
it took me this far out of "us" being ended for me to say i dont love you.
it was all in the moment, i admit that. but yet whos isnt?
dont we all say it in the moment to the person we supposibly "love"
but then when the break up sets in we stop loving them.
how is that possible?
maybee its just the weed my dreams are smokingg. but i can nvr tell my mom i dont love her.
or maybe is the love different from yur mom to ur lover?
i dont view it differntlyy, if either died...i'd be in tears if we were together
so how do i really noe if i loved you?
some say "if you can xplain why you love someone, thn it isnt love"
but i can explain several reason why i love my mom..as sad as it is for a xample.
its truee...we all love are mothrs no matter what & pretty sure we wudnt leave are moms evn if they said i hate you & they aktually ment it.
ven if my mom walked out on me & didnt come home for 5 days i'd still forgive her.
but similar thing happend wit me & my ex where she didnt contact me bak for 3 days & i ended it.
so no, i didnt love her.
every ex-girl friend i've evre had i dont love.
loves a unconditional forevr type thing, so nxt time when you say..think b4 you speakk

1 comment:

  1. this is so true. I cant just throw that word around because its too deeepp

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