being thankful

so pretty much what im gunna get into is being thankful. i recently started being thankful for what i had & didnt really care about what i wanted. so i pretty much am/ still needa tell the ppl in my life that im happy there in it. i had some1 say it to me & it make u feel really appreciated for being a human & makes u a lil kloser with the friend because u develope having more love for them

whats really sad is when i was dead serious & told my mom im happy that she did everything for me & thanked her for giving me life.
she seriusly stood up and looked at my & smelled my breathe to make sure i wasnt high because i had came home from being with friends and told her to sit down at t kitchen table where me & her usually discuss stuff at.

and i told her she jus did that & i said no mom seriouslyy im happy for everything thank you.
she kame up to me & gave me a hug =].

it was a really good feeling for me letting her no because me & my mom dont get along at the greatest level of mother & son so i guess it was kinda weirdd.

but now i jus feel like i kan tell her more stuff & get to trust her with my problems

idk why but ive been seeing the world from a little bit of a different perspective & im glad that i had this wake up kall as i kinda kall it.

it made me more alert of people that were in my life & shouldnt b there & it made me more aware of the ppl that shud & deserve to b in my life.

its nvr bad to let someone know how u feel & what kinda problem it is or solution it is.

im still a little arrogant on my personality & every day basis & still joke around but i guess im a little more okay with things.

this doesnt go for me being okay wit gays...because thats something i disagree on.

but again thats my opinion

but as far as people take people so can lies

& i meen that as the little saying goes "rosa sat so martin kud walk, martin walked so obama cud run" thats what i meen by ppl take ppl.

but a lie can go a more negative part where as u say this this person tells this person, n then a lie gets bigger then what it originally wass & then this big fuss over something really little creates & there u go a fight over that.

this all relates to jus being a little more positive kuz its beneficial to everything in your surroundings.

now most people are close minded & not open for new things & thnx okay, its there life there live it how they wana liv it

but as for others being a little more positive will help...now its not a overnight thing but i can gurantee you that good things come to those who wait.

signing off/

rotten day 8/

i guess im not the onlyy guy that had this happen to him & i no this goes for gurls also

but really i h8 it when i ike some1& i talk to them on somewhat of a daily basis. And i tlk to them & gradually we get to no each other better & i kant front shes attractive and i guess i caught a little somthing for her. but idk if shes vibin like i am.? so wtf do i do?.
well i liked her...i didnt tell her kuz thats not my floww. so i jus stayed shut..i dont no what to do..like i feel somthing but then none stop she says she doesnt wana relationship.
ok kool...that was my Q to kiqq roqx so i did...men her r still friends still tlk & then i told her.
& for som weird reason i felt like we cuda had something...like she had a thing...but then if u no me im the type to not let shit to get 2 me easilyy
but basically i hate it when i like some1 and im not sure if they feel the same.?

y kant u gurls jus like give off easier body langauge...or sound more engaged in the convoes to give us a head up if ur interested or not
kuz on som reel sit i hate not knowing things like that justt because rejection is 1 of the things i dont wana fac & no one likes rejection ppl
so only if gurls made stuff more visible.

asking us to hang out or something...jusstt a little thing to let us no 100% on it
kuz chances r if u look gud ill pursue somthing...i no most of the good looking girls were i liv so i really kant c much wit em.
kuz since theree friends they tell u there problems & along wit those problems komes som of the flaws i h8 in a gurl.

not trusting.
ladies im sorry that ur ex fucked u over...but it doesnt meen u shud mess it up for the nxt guy for ur ex's rong doings

u let us no so easily when ur not intersted.

but what if it was flipped & we didnt no if u didnt want us...but made it reel easy to where we new jus by eye contact that u wanted us

but hey u gurls all act the same when it comes to the good guys.
but thats okay...kuz not every1 meets ur interest & not every1 is guna.
but b4 u let some1 pass jus give it another thought. especially if u no that person & how they r in a relationship. give em a cance kuz they might b the 1s to throw the smile uve been lacking for somtime.

& this is also directed to my ninjas. dont pass up on shit.
take it & embrace the moment u have. kuz u just nvr noe

as for me.? i've explained most of my part...but i reely dont have a hard time pursueing...i just have a hard time taking the rejection wich makes the part of pursueing hard.

its a domino effect pretty much

samenessslyyyy

well this 1 is dedicated to those ppl that jus wont change.

ill nvr change ive always been myself

but i hate it wen ppl change..its like u put trust into them & they didnt betrayy u....but they act brand new on u

so in a wayy them acting brand new makes u feel like what u told them is guna gt told to some1s ears that werent ment to hear it

donnie hass always been ivor & ivor has always been donnie

& ivors my goverment name[ee-vor]

but its like a different change in ur mind about them

or u jus dont no about them anymore kuz they got new friends & dont tlk to u

but relly u kant do shit about it kuz well its not ur life 8/

so manyy ppl ask me for advice on wat they shud do about there friends kuz they dont no what to do kuz there friend is changin up on em

i had it done to me but my friends from myy child hood remain my friends today

i love em to death & wudnt have it no other wayy

som wud call this gay but idc: thru the crazy laughs & long boringg ass days...som thru tears

som seen me change right in front of there eyes.

u jus gotta have luv forr somthin thats been there threw EVERYTHINGG

& herd all the bull shit, fought thru all the bullshit, & still standinn

thats a friendship that alot of ppl lack & im happy i dontt

all my friends had there stages of actin brand new & ive done the same back

were all human & nothing super natural.

were made to make mistakes so mistakes have ben & will b made.

enuf sedd

black hole & nvr komming bakk

okkk yess its truu..i lost my v card & i loved it.

mistake?
yes.

but in a world like this we trip over each other to make mistakes.

so i did nothing wrong

i dissapointed some ppl & im not sorry

im satisfied with my self

but getting to the point:

after loosing the v card ive had som other sexual encounters & no nott wit fukin dudes for the simple minded dick heads reeding.

but with a girl & i nvr rely thought like a typical "guy" kuz i nvr lost my v card.

but the wayy we think..well the way i do idk bout others

for me since i lost it, its like this sensation to fuk every second & why we r such pigs to gurls with dime ass bodies & quarter faces is because ur sexy

& when a guy calls u sexy its not a big urge...but hes basically saying id fuk u

thats wat sexy is& i nvr say sexy kuz idk a person that well im not guna spill my personal shit out liek i am now lol

but wen we c a nice ass or titties its like a rush of adrenaline kinda...not getting a erection & not getting horny either.

but more of a like "dam...yo id fuk the shit outa her u dont understand" & we sayy that to r boys.

kuz when ur in bed with a fine chik...evrything is perfectt

as for me i kan kontrol my urges

im not a pig & if i were to get into a relationship sex rely wud b the last thing on my mind

as much as i mis it, i still miss the feeling of havin some 1 there

rare blogg:

i nvr did this..but i have 2

so recently i was pounding my meat nobodies home..i liv in a college infested dick headed neighborhood.

so there for i hear tons of different musikk

so any wayy im poundingg my meat to make som steak for my mom when she gets home.

im jus listening to my sidekickk thru the stereo bumpin it the fuk out in my beeter n boxers & holey sox

n then i forgot i downloaded the jadakiss cd to it

did bother listening to a single trak kuz i dont like him but my friend bobby that sits with me at lunch told me about that album n how i shud give it a chance

so i get home downloaded it & didnt use it til today

i kame across the songg smoking gun & then led it to B.I.G song & then went to by my side

the hole time i was pretty stunned by his lyrics.

like not 2 many rappers like him..he really speax reel shit..& his raps arent complicated at all there reall understanding for the mind

lik wayne he says a line u hear it but u gota think about& it kills everything else he says kuz ur still stuk on it.

but jadakiss not at all...one line by the other was punch line & easy to connect & pretty interesting how he connected everything

hes definetly a under rated rapper & i c y..i nvr relly gave him a chance b4...i herd his muzikk in the hood[when i drive by] & pay no mind to it.

n then at skool its all about him 2

basically i didnt kare kuz ima first impression typa person wen it komes to rappers.

if i hear 1 song n it doesnt catch me then automatically everything u make is garbage to me

but jada really proves a point & has a understanding thoughtful message in his lyrics

thoughtful not meaning kind n nice...but makes me think about shit in a different wayy

a influence kinda in a wayy.

overal dont sleep on em.

hes a veteran..hes been in the game for about 10 yearrs with ruff riders hittin out in 98 99.

so safe to say he knows what hes doin

dangers real danger

im bak @ this...been gone but fuk it im motivated now.

any getting into this 1 today

its about that girl danger everybody including myself love..shes fuken sexyyy ass hell & girls with ink always makes my day lol

but going around the internet & jus kame across this viscious ass photo..red on it:

she basically tlks about giving head & just speaking on prostiting for 2 1/2 years & doing shit that doesnt float my boat.

y i say float my boat? cuz word is she did it with 30 + guys...that alota fukin goin on lol

heres the pikture..i meen after 30 guys..shes pretty fukin tight:

u see it for ur self..no gimmicks none of the bullshit...no photoshop for u non beleivers lol

str8 nasty shit...its still pretty safe to sayy id let her suk my dik with those lips lol