insecurities still exist in'em?

i no alott of pretty girls tht have insecurities, and i dont no how they worry so bad. lol. i meen no ones perfect but damn they rely strive to get over flaws tht arent even tht big & noticable. iim not the greatest thing on the block, but im not the ugliest thing on the block..and with tht in mind gives me a rele balanced self esteem to where i almost never feel bad about anything on me. im perfectly fine with myself, so why cant you be with yours?
-just a quick thoughtt.

i guess its what they calll "venting"....

alot of things have been on my mind around females & just the hole relationships and etc, due to valentines day being around the corner. for some reason its like a yearlyy trend tht a early saturday, usually a cuple weeks b4 Vday tht i sit and becoem rele bored to where i almost watch anything on tv, well thts today. but i didnt think of any ex's tht i left & vice versa ijs sat and unfortunatelyy watched materialistic girls with hilary duff in it. and noticed how females fall in love with the idea of things. alot of females want the perfect guy, and this fairytale love story....and for some they realized tht its never like this and just look for someone tht can give them a good time for this time in their life.
to me, girls listen to alot of r&b music wich gases their head up. im not saying its a bad thing to look for the perfect fairytale love story like alor of songs explain...bt what im tryna say is alot of those love stories come with alot of tears, alot of argueing and alot of negativity tth makes someone like me not want to get into a relationship in a longtime.
like for example, me & a "fb" made it clear no feelings would be attatched...i went out on a huge limb to explain tht i want no feelings from her to me. i didnt have any for her periodd. but she got caught up & rely started liking me, now what am i to do? i kant be a dick and say i alredy told you no feelings attatched...even tho thts what shud b said. thts 2 much of a asshole move. and wats even worse is she has a boyfriend, but we still creep in the sheets. so now im in even more fucked up of a position, kus if i said someshit about no feelings attatched she'd start cryin kus she caught feelings deep for me, i guess she just got caught up & confused the sex with me liking her.lesson learned: dont make love with a fuck buddy. its a bad mistake when you put time & all tht into jus something thts suppose 2 be 30min - 1hr job. making love takes alot longer then tht, and she got caught up...it was my fault.
but my point from this f*cked up situation is tht just bkus i took my time and did everything better thn her boyfriend, she thought i'd b like tht in a relationship. communicating with her how a gf shud be & all tht. treat her how a gf shud rely be treated. even tho its kinda right then wrongg i cudnt have done shit about how she felt. she fell inlove with the times we had sex and got caught up wit it thinkin thts how things wud be in a relationship...now tht i rely think about it i did have feelings for her also....i guess i cant just stick my dick in anyone & leve, even tho i wished i cudd kus it wud make things so much easier. i knt. in the end i broke off all ties with her & havent spoken to her since tht day.
she thought the sex wud be like a relationship, and it wouldnt be. only reason why i didnt have tht mentality tht she did is bkus i no how she is within a relationship...its one of those situations where close friends start fucking =/ and thts wat happend.
i get mad at myself alot for it js bkus i lost a good friend. we were friends for almost 5 years. even b4 she was with him she asked me to take her V, and i did just so. since then we always kept things D.L, i had no choice but to...it was my 1st rele cuddy buddy so its not like i was used to things. so best thing i decided to do was to remain quiet no matter what. even tho im spilling it all right here...js venting thoughts tho lol
so i learned to watch my steps carefully. i havent rely been involved with a female more then a sexual thing for ovr 2 months & to be honest i kinda miss it.
me & my ex had the most fun i sware, with my corny jokess always keeping her smiling & me knowing i was the reason for it relyy put me at ease wen i went to bed. sadlyy i dont miss her, i js miss doing cuple things...even tho being singlee according to everyone is better theres just those things you cant do with a opposite sex friend tht u kan do with a lover. sounds cornyy but ill admit i miss having someone...i had no problem seeing her face everyday, i wasnt rely tht embaressed wen my mom cud hear my bed hitting the wall wen we had sex...for her it was. not for me tho. it was a rele relationship, i made her cry & after i actually felt bad for it, she had long convoes with my mom for god noes how long or about wat.
but my point is you cant come across soemone for you thts like this everyday. you rely just have to let things fall into place.an hope shit comes out to how u want it to.
but bein a guy were not suppose 2 have any moments like this...but idc. im jus sayinn its good to have someone tht you can rely be yurself with, without holding back....thats hard to come by nowadays.

dirtyy car interior & dirty drivers

so a thought popped up, i was watching someshit on how nowadaes girls are hoes if they fuck a bunch of dudes but if a guy fucks a bunch of girls thts props. lol in no way do i promote being a manwhore, just its easier for the guy to get away with more girls then gurls with guys. i look at it in a weird perspective....since a guys wangwang[lol] is nothing complex, its just gets hard and shoots, theres not specifics to are dicks. girls on the other hand, can have a smelly cooch, nasty fat ugly clip, there pussy can wide be as fuck, its nastier when a girls cooch is hairy then a guys pubes, girls are jsut more complicated. so when they say a guy sleeps with a lot of girls thts a manwhore wich is true but if a girl sleeps with a lot of guys its way worse. let me explain how, lets just compare the inside of a car you no the roof, the back seat, the interior, just everything on the inside of it and compare to a gitls cooch. wen a dick goes in a pussy it basically drives it good or bad. lol same with a car depending on the driver the car'll drive good bad, suck at turning etc. now the driver is just a dirty driver...stinks raggedy clothes etc etc and he steps into a brand new car, drives it regular etc etc. that car is going to have a little left over of the guys dirtyness. and the more the dirty drivers the more nasty the inside of the car will get bkus itll start getting deteriorated. just like a pussy the more dicks you have chances are they been in alot of other girls and ur putting tht in you more & more. not every drivers stinkyy, but the more people you let drive your car the more miles your putting on..wich makes people not wana drive you. so you see, the more guys a girl fucks the more her shits "worn" out. just like a car, the more drivers the cheaper the car...meening easy pussy with the more ppl you fuck.
so ladies lets try and not have a lot of miles on ur car.lol

bite off more then you can chew

its a regular guy trait to want a girl with a fat ass and big tits and a pretty face, right?. yea im right lol. but when the only ones really tryna tlk to girls are the shitballs...no style, out dated hair cuts, fucked up shoes etc etc. there wanting something tht they cant level out..you want a chick wit a fat ass, big ass tits, bomb ass face but yet ur scruffyy un shaved and bummy and in most cases the bold ones are the ugly ones lol. now im not tryna bite anyones head off, just in general this is howit is. females want guys with a style and all this but yet what are they bringing to the table? there kick game isnt the greatest, there ass isnt the fattest, & face isnt the prettiest. now if u got a big but, pretty face or w.e in most cases you stand out in ur own way in a guys eyes. period. we always find something unique about this jaunt & when we discuss females thts the part we bring out to distinct u from the crowd. whether it be ur hair, shoes etc. but back to my point is alot of ppl nowadaes ask for stuff ina mate that they cant bring to the table as well. its human nature to go for things we like but we first have to realize what we can bring to the table before we try and have a feast with someone. thats why cuples tht look good together actually go together..kus things fit and usually those cuples tend to have long term relationships.
nxt time yu look for someone to get involved with them, think & make sure u can see urself with tht prsn.
make sure they match you in little ways and in big ways. to me thts a sign for something deeper then just friendship.

trust

its almost mind blowing to me how trust starts from nothing but then ends up being the biggest thing you rely on in life & on ppl. many say dnt trust ppl..but why not? even wen someone does ur dirty in 2 years there probably not guna be there so it isnt guna hurt to trust & if they do you wrong its more of a lesson for you. the more wrongs you do the more rights you learn...it kinda all goes back to the whole "practice makes perfect" you trust someone and they fuck you ovr, now you no wat u did & didnt do rong...nxt time u tht much smarter & kloser to reaching a perfect way to trust someone. a perfect way of detecting a potential trustee. when u lay with someone tht meens something to you & u feel compfortable..its the trust tht use builded tht u rely on for the compfort.
js a quick postt...

perfection?

nobodies perfect[hint hint]...but when we look at are flaws & down areselves on those just adds more to the "nobodies perfect" thing.. still following me?
ok good, but what if we fix our flaws that we have, wud we then not be perfect for the world...but self perfection? wud we have tht if we got rid of all our flaws?
....well some ppl like myself take in the flaws & go worry about the strong points...no point in fixing something thats alredy low, so why not work on making high "highs" higher? sounds like common sense right? well it is.
alot of ppl say they wudnt change themselves for the world, even with females rely low self esteem and at times depression of there flaws.
still with me? good :) lol
but as a guy, i kan speek for myself when i say im more then happy with who i am, i mean yea theres things i wana change, but if i change them then im changing who i am as a prsn & i dnt think im redy to do tht anytime soon.
girls will bug about there boobs not being big enuf..i no it doesnt bother them, but if it causes u to fele insecurity whenever a guy stares at u & u think there staring at ur flaws then thts a problem. yea, its normal bkus ur nervous..but still....in my opinion everyones mind frame shud be if someone cant fuck wit them for who they are dont fuck wit them period.
just a quick vent