close minded people in action..

so today after i leave my 8th period class walking out this girl thats in my class goes "donnie do you know _____" i said "yea why?" she goes "kus she be talkin about you 24/7 saying omg donnies so cute" so i kinda blushed and then she said something and then she ended up saying "your not my type" im like well clearly im not (thinking to myself) then i said "no shit look at you and look at me", then she took some type of offense to it like i was saying im to good for her, but i really just ment that we wouldnt look right as a couple.
so she goes on & says something & i remember me saying "im not your type but im not ugly" then she like did some gesture with her face then i thru the look on my face that says "bitch is you stupid my ass aint ugly" then i basically repeated my self with that type of look on my face & she goes "your not ugly, your not"

the point of the topic is that i knew her since my 8th grade year in middle school ; and we dont KNOW each other but i know her. she kool peeps not a person i'd date though(lol). but like as i take off to leave the school heading to the parking lot to get into my rolls royce(lol) it hit me! how can she say im not her type if she doesnt really know me? she never took the time to ask me my favorite color, music, not even the basics and she goes to just how i act with people in general as how i'd act if i dated someone...well atleast some type of judgement had to be passed based on the way i act with people, right?
who knows im a person that gives people the benefit of the doubt when it comes to dating and stuff of that nature, souly based on the fact that people do have hearts and can be passionate towards others ; you nor i know them like that so who are we to say they arent different with there bf/gfs? exactlyy we have to room to talk
but it was a good thing that this happened today!
lesson learned:get to know girls before passing judgement on not giving them a chance because i'd never know until i give things a try with them right? WRONG. lol. usually girls that im already attracted to are open to trying to meet me and actually are interested in getting to know me as more then the person i act on a dailyy basis.

sleep where my pillows at ; nightmares are bound to come eventually

where i am currently located as a resident is lancaster, PA. known as amishville or w.e. NO! its little puerto rico. lol
but i hate it here ; everyone is so close minded and stuck to just one thing its like people say there different to just seem cool kus now its cool to be different. NO fuck that...do wtf you've been doing and stop playing a role you werent doing. why in all the sudden did you start to listen to plain white t's? or just any rock group for that matter...FUCK THAT!.i never passioned other music then lil wayne, kid cudi, wiz khalifa, lupe fiasco, wale, tyga and some of drake. but i dont flaunt the fact i listen to kid cudi to seem cool or anything ; i LOVE the high tempo beat/electro beats he spits on. and the shit he says is not one bit lyrical but it is common sense and a common sense that i can fuck with.
all these ppl are just now getting put on with cudi ; like his albums been out for more then 6 months, your only listening to him kus hes hyped now. and tht kills the hole point of listening to somene that you actually care to download and like there music and really be a fan to someones music.
more of this town is DRAMA...females mainly i mean. like god damn it stop giving a fuck whos tryna get with your boyfriend kus changes are hes tryna get with them. stop punishing the ones thats not doing the crime. if a girl tlks slick why do you wana fight her over her opinion on you? I THOUGHT WE WERE ENTITLED TO OUR OWN FUCKING OPINION. your fighting kus someone said something about you? woop d fuckin DOO. lets commit suicide the worlds over, its 2012 all because one person doesnt like you..im sure your guna just stop sleeping, stop eating all because of one person not liking you. SMFH ppl say they dont care what others think then why fight someone because they called you a bitch? woop d doo 2 weeks it'll all be forgotten about so why bother with ppl?
what even outrages me more is i was considered a cornball in 9th grade for wearing polos to school look now ; polos the 2010 style and its all the sudden cool to wear polo? WTF. g-shocks are nothing new people are just getting put onto them.
its like if it comes out and nobody fucks with it, WACK is what its called. but as soon as it gets momentum going behind it ; its the greatest invention since high-top shoes.
nobody follows there hearts any more ; everyone wears whats hot its like a big ass fan club with everyone wanting to join. you know what i gota say? KISS MY FUCKIN ASS. your cool is not my cool so im doin my own thingg with my shit.

it bugs me to the core of my mind that people wear this one time and then next wear this. like for instance member when famous was in? everybody wore famous and dc shirts and stuff like that..well guess what? THOSE DIMWITS ARE NOW WEARING POLO. because its the newest thing out..then they wana consider themselves fresher then others just because they got into the newest and most populated fan club in town. NO again KISS MY FUCKIN ASS. i like those people that wore hco & still wear hco. those ppl tht been wearing vans and still wear vans & might i add all these ppl tht switch up styles are people that are 18 19 yrs old im 16 being me..wtf does that tell you?

peace ill bbl with more of my thoughts....

day dreaming/ranting, venting/ etc

im a huge day dreamer ; i kid you not i could sit on a park bench on a summer night for literally hours on in and be perfectly content with myself by myself and not speaking to anyone i think about random things;

whether it be...

girls
clothes
more girls
more girls
the weekend
true art in its purest form
or any little thing

im NOT a regular person, if you know me im overly sarcastic, i make jokes on all races including white because its funny to me, i try and make a joke into everything...im not a person you cross paths with anyday
im rarely ever in a bad mood ; only person that can make me go from good to bad is my mom, i dont know how she posses the power to do it but she can smh

but when it comes to people i get along with almost everyone i come in contact with, i dont have any known haters...maybe a couplee but the fogs to thick for me to realizee i have anyy

even though i love girls and think about them as much as any guy ; THEY ARE NOT MY WEAKNESS i have been perfectly single for the past 4 months not being involved with a single female

most guys need a new girl for some odd reason ; guys need girls to make them feel better about themselves and self esteem, there thing is the badder the bitch the higher your self esteem.
my thing is my self esteem is alreadyy pretty high, im very pleased with the way i came out of the twat whole i have alot of imperfections and stuff like that..but fuck it you take with what you got & make it look 100x's better then it was originally planned for you.
you WILL NOT GET ANYWHERE sitting around criticizing yourself, doubting/downing yourself with your insecurities...make the best of it and focus on your strong points and make having flaws seem okay ; if you do that it will lets other people feel okay about themselves and have a thing in there mind saying im not the only one walking around with these big flaws
i always speak on ppls flaws if im out in public or something for me & my friends to get a good laugh & i mean a GOOD LAUGH. lol
but in the end its all a joke ; even tho i clown people with baggy jeans kus there so outdated & out of style those people i bet clown people that wear tight jeans.
but from my point its a joke ; i really could careless what you wear or do with your life ; as long as it doesnt effect me then more power to youu.

girls with lame guys is just the tip of the ice berg of my rantingness ; i dont get how girls say guys are all lame and they end up meeting someone new and it goes back down the gutter like the rest, then they get mad at US meaning guys that actually have there selves together , and bitch at us because they cant find something good ; girls need to know A GOOD GUY WILL NOT WALK UP TO YOU OR TELL YOU HE LIKES YOU maybe throw out hints but nothing obvi so be on the look outtt for that.

ill be back with a Pt. 2...

r.e.s.p.e.c.t

DO NOT give it unless it is earned ; and if it is, give certain levels of it NEVER give your full respect to someone unless they gave it to you or they deserve it

negativity spreads quicker then positivity ; but positivity is remembered

my mom always told me to be with people that have your best interest at heart with out then even noticing ; and i found it.
friends fight, argue, and all that petty shit but in the end if you end the day laughing with them then thats a true friend.
i never been backstabbed or told some deeep dark secrets ; ive always just been open about shit and i wear my heart on a shortsleeve ; i dont mean that in the girls sense of getting hurt easy but with whatever i do i try to stay as openly myself as possible so in the future no front would have to be put on for it.
people judge people ; so why not get judged on who you truely are in every situation and in every encounter with someone, atleast you cant get mad at them for not getting to know you kus they didnt but still your just yourself and with that in mind, you'll be good & get along with anyone in life that you meet.

what NOT to do

i havent had many experiences with bad things with barely anything in life ; im good with that, but i have noticed people who have been through stuff and thru them i learn things.
and one thing i will take with me to my grave is to never expect anything from anyone ; if you just do that then you'll never have to be dissapointed ;)
another thing is never rely on any one for anything, that gives people a sense of power of you & people will take advantage of that to the fullest extent, rely on you & no one else to get things done that you want done. its like your giving someone the chance to fuck you over and then in a sense you get mad when they fuck up because they didnt do it how they were suppose to lol
bbl ; im in school doin this bloggin ishh lmao

FINALLLLLYYYYY HEREEEEE !

FABOLOUS & DJ DRAMA PRESENT:THERE IS NO COMPETITION 2(the funeral service)

fabs finally back with his vol. 2 of the "no competition series" i fell in love with the first one, and after hearing some of the beats he went in on i think i love this one more(lol) all jokes aside though, i need to download it but im just to lazy. but he goes in on the "all the way turnt up" beat and MURKS it.
as well as the "popular demand" beat which is a personal favorite =D.

what happens to rappers after there "hype" ?

well..its an easy guess they either flop or get established. one person in particular that came out of his hype period established was[drum roll]........

DRAKE!

everybody remembers the "so far gone" era of 09...it all started with the song "ransom" feat. lil wayne. that was when people set out an ear for who drake really was, even before ransom he was hot but this is when his buzz started getting up. then after ransom he dropped his critically acclaimed mixtape titled "so far gone" with more hits on it then most albums (best i ever had, successful, uptown, houstatlantavegas..etc) and then out of nowhere everywhere you heard best i ever had was on the radio, on peoples myspace status's, on there ipods, myspace pages and everywhere along with successful. then a little after that he started featuring on everyones track and then sprouted into this established artist that has expectations that are never let down, which comes into this period of his career where fans are highly anticipating his album like the space jams before they came out.
i think his album wont let no fan down and will bring the regular greatness that drake always makes.

now moving into a artist that flopped in 09(drumroll...again)

GUCCI! MANE!

im sorry but this man is a flop...from his speech impediment to him never having a blanket(BUR!). i personally tried giving him a chance and downloaded a mixtape and gave it a listen, just to see what was the hype behind him with all the features and shit.
the only thing i came to like about gucci mane is that his phrases are catchy(GUCCI, BUR!!!!BUR!!!BUR!!!) other then that his work ethic is unrespectable because all he makes is trash music, not trap...TRASH!. his word play i really cant understand him thanks to speech impediment, it really confuses me alot. his album was anticipated by alot of people and guess what? it FLOPPED. even though i dont like the fact hes in jail due to a stupid probation violation, thats still not enough sympathy for me to like him.

online grammar.

i've noticed the more proper you write the better of someone taking you serious via online sites[twitter, facebook, myspace etc]
i made a joke out of people that spell there myspace names like "M!$$ P3RF3<+", wich should really be spelled "miss perfect" i guess they thought it was "cool" to spice up the spelling and make a complete idiot out of ones self lol.
but i kant lie, but in the day[06-07] it was actually considered "in" to write your names like that lol, and the more fucked up and twisted the letters the more you would stick out, but now you come across someone with that type of spelling you really think they dont know how to change there myspace name or theres just pure lames.
i can co-sign on this type of lettering lol...i remember in 8th grade my myspace name was "$u!c!d@l +h()^gh+$" when its really suppose to say "suicidal thoughts", and i rocked out with that type of spelling througout my 8th grade year lol then 9th grade comes in and all the sudden it changed to having the "tm" at the corner of w.e your name was.
and then everyone body use to have music lyrics as there display name, like guys would put "$________$" and girls would put "♥~______♥" by the way, that blank is for what ever lyric was in at the time, especially the "we fly high, no lie you know this BALLIN" that i think is my all time favorite lyric as a myspace name because it was so blown up that everyone had it lol.

why you gotta call them "jaunts" ?

a man bashers most hated word is jaunt. lol.
whenever your with a group of girls and another dude, and all the sudden lets say some sexy girl walks by and you look at her then your friend misses her you look at him and say "damn that jaunt was bad ass shit, you missed her she had cheeks" lmao. and when the girls hear it the vibes justt changes in a hostile way.
its like girls just feel as if it downgrades them in so many ways, which isnt even a guys point in saying it. its more of a "thing" to call a girl nowadays.
just like a girl would call a group of dudes "niggas", and even just singling out someone and kallin him a nigga is the same way we say jaunt just vice versa the sex lol.
i must admit tho, in a way it doesnt downgrade a female a little bit by making it seem like there just sex creatures, or the worse; booty calls lol.

dear world,

you cant wana make everyone happy, sometimes you have to side with everything else and mainly focus on one thing..you. every parent wants there kid to go to college...even if the reality of them not wanting it, parents are still hopeful. i kant say i wana go to college...kus i dont. i kant say college is for me...bkus it isnt. i dont have some big goal in life to make fat pockets and live a pre-planned life. even tho thats what ive been fronting on doing. i at this point dont see myself in college, i just say it so everyone would get off my shoulders. but you kant run from your problems forever, an im not going to. yes, i'd like to change around and go to college...but this is me, an me doesnt see college. most kids by now have everything planned out, what college they want, some even wat career they want. but i dont...i just have a whole lot of faith in god and a imagination. and with that faith only thing i kan hope with it is that i end up somewhere, doing something i enjoy at tht point in my life.
its so much pressure to do good on test scores so the school, and everyone looks good. so the teachers dont get there jobs taken away an all tht. im tired of tests defining my mental capacity, so studying nor skool are my strengths...all the sudden that makes someone stupid.?...but yet with all my failing grades i still manage to have intellectual conversations with alot of ppl. im not book smart, nor am i common sense smart at times, but i am me-smart. im somewhere that i assure myself im not dumb bkus i dont have high-set goals for myself like everyone else does.
dear world, i'll come back later, i gota go save the world a little bit more, til next time...c'ya later

insecurities still exist in'em?

i no alott of pretty girls tht have insecurities, and i dont no how they worry so bad. lol. i meen no ones perfect but damn they rely strive to get over flaws tht arent even tht big & noticable. iim not the greatest thing on the block, but im not the ugliest thing on the block..and with tht in mind gives me a rele balanced self esteem to where i almost never feel bad about anything on me. im perfectly fine with myself, so why cant you be with yours?
-just a quick thoughtt.

i guess its what they calll "venting"....

alot of things have been on my mind around females & just the hole relationships and etc, due to valentines day being around the corner. for some reason its like a yearlyy trend tht a early saturday, usually a cuple weeks b4 Vday tht i sit and becoem rele bored to where i almost watch anything on tv, well thts today. but i didnt think of any ex's tht i left & vice versa ijs sat and unfortunatelyy watched materialistic girls with hilary duff in it. and noticed how females fall in love with the idea of things. alot of females want the perfect guy, and this fairytale love story....and for some they realized tht its never like this and just look for someone tht can give them a good time for this time in their life.
to me, girls listen to alot of r&b music wich gases their head up. im not saying its a bad thing to look for the perfect fairytale love story like alor of songs explain...bt what im tryna say is alot of those love stories come with alot of tears, alot of argueing and alot of negativity tth makes someone like me not want to get into a relationship in a longtime.
like for example, me & a "fb" made it clear no feelings would be attatched...i went out on a huge limb to explain tht i want no feelings from her to me. i didnt have any for her periodd. but she got caught up & rely started liking me, now what am i to do? i kant be a dick and say i alredy told you no feelings attatched...even tho thts what shud b said. thts 2 much of a asshole move. and wats even worse is she has a boyfriend, but we still creep in the sheets. so now im in even more fucked up of a position, kus if i said someshit about no feelings attatched she'd start cryin kus she caught feelings deep for me, i guess she just got caught up & confused the sex with me liking her.lesson learned: dont make love with a fuck buddy. its a bad mistake when you put time & all tht into jus something thts suppose 2 be 30min - 1hr job. making love takes alot longer then tht, and she got caught up...it was my fault.
but my point from this f*cked up situation is tht just bkus i took my time and did everything better thn her boyfriend, she thought i'd b like tht in a relationship. communicating with her how a gf shud be & all tht. treat her how a gf shud rely be treated. even tho its kinda right then wrongg i cudnt have done shit about how she felt. she fell inlove with the times we had sex and got caught up wit it thinkin thts how things wud be in a relationship...now tht i rely think about it i did have feelings for her also....i guess i cant just stick my dick in anyone & leve, even tho i wished i cudd kus it wud make things so much easier. i knt. in the end i broke off all ties with her & havent spoken to her since tht day.
she thought the sex wud be like a relationship, and it wouldnt be. only reason why i didnt have tht mentality tht she did is bkus i no how she is within a relationship...its one of those situations where close friends start fucking =/ and thts wat happend.
i get mad at myself alot for it js bkus i lost a good friend. we were friends for almost 5 years. even b4 she was with him she asked me to take her V, and i did just so. since then we always kept things D.L, i had no choice but to...it was my 1st rele cuddy buddy so its not like i was used to things. so best thing i decided to do was to remain quiet no matter what. even tho im spilling it all right here...js venting thoughts tho lol
so i learned to watch my steps carefully. i havent rely been involved with a female more then a sexual thing for ovr 2 months & to be honest i kinda miss it.
me & my ex had the most fun i sware, with my corny jokess always keeping her smiling & me knowing i was the reason for it relyy put me at ease wen i went to bed. sadlyy i dont miss her, i js miss doing cuple things...even tho being singlee according to everyone is better theres just those things you cant do with a opposite sex friend tht u kan do with a lover. sounds cornyy but ill admit i miss having someone...i had no problem seeing her face everyday, i wasnt rely tht embaressed wen my mom cud hear my bed hitting the wall wen we had sex...for her it was. not for me tho. it was a rele relationship, i made her cry & after i actually felt bad for it, she had long convoes with my mom for god noes how long or about wat.
but my point is you cant come across soemone for you thts like this everyday. you rely just have to let things fall into place.an hope shit comes out to how u want it to.
but bein a guy were not suppose 2 have any moments like this...but idc. im jus sayinn its good to have someone tht you can rely be yurself with, without holding back....thats hard to come by nowadays.

dirtyy car interior & dirty drivers

so a thought popped up, i was watching someshit on how nowadaes girls are hoes if they fuck a bunch of dudes but if a guy fucks a bunch of girls thts props. lol in no way do i promote being a manwhore, just its easier for the guy to get away with more girls then gurls with guys. i look at it in a weird perspective....since a guys wangwang[lol] is nothing complex, its just gets hard and shoots, theres not specifics to are dicks. girls on the other hand, can have a smelly cooch, nasty fat ugly clip, there pussy can wide be as fuck, its nastier when a girls cooch is hairy then a guys pubes, girls are jsut more complicated. so when they say a guy sleeps with a lot of girls thts a manwhore wich is true but if a girl sleeps with a lot of guys its way worse. let me explain how, lets just compare the inside of a car you no the roof, the back seat, the interior, just everything on the inside of it and compare to a gitls cooch. wen a dick goes in a pussy it basically drives it good or bad. lol same with a car depending on the driver the car'll drive good bad, suck at turning etc. now the driver is just a dirty driver...stinks raggedy clothes etc etc and he steps into a brand new car, drives it regular etc etc. that car is going to have a little left over of the guys dirtyness. and the more the dirty drivers the more nasty the inside of the car will get bkus itll start getting deteriorated. just like a pussy the more dicks you have chances are they been in alot of other girls and ur putting tht in you more & more. not every drivers stinkyy, but the more people you let drive your car the more miles your putting on..wich makes people not wana drive you. so you see, the more guys a girl fucks the more her shits "worn" out. just like a car, the more drivers the cheaper the car...meening easy pussy with the more ppl you fuck.
so ladies lets try and not have a lot of miles on ur car.lol

bite off more then you can chew

its a regular guy trait to want a girl with a fat ass and big tits and a pretty face, right?. yea im right lol. but when the only ones really tryna tlk to girls are the shitballs...no style, out dated hair cuts, fucked up shoes etc etc. there wanting something tht they cant level out..you want a chick wit a fat ass, big ass tits, bomb ass face but yet ur scruffyy un shaved and bummy and in most cases the bold ones are the ugly ones lol. now im not tryna bite anyones head off, just in general this is howit is. females want guys with a style and all this but yet what are they bringing to the table? there kick game isnt the greatest, there ass isnt the fattest, & face isnt the prettiest. now if u got a big but, pretty face or w.e in most cases you stand out in ur own way in a guys eyes. period. we always find something unique about this jaunt & when we discuss females thts the part we bring out to distinct u from the crowd. whether it be ur hair, shoes etc. but back to my point is alot of ppl nowadaes ask for stuff ina mate that they cant bring to the table as well. its human nature to go for things we like but we first have to realize what we can bring to the table before we try and have a feast with someone. thats why cuples tht look good together actually go together..kus things fit and usually those cuples tend to have long term relationships.
nxt time yu look for someone to get involved with them, think & make sure u can see urself with tht prsn.
make sure they match you in little ways and in big ways. to me thts a sign for something deeper then just friendship.

trust

its almost mind blowing to me how trust starts from nothing but then ends up being the biggest thing you rely on in life & on ppl. many say dnt trust ppl..but why not? even wen someone does ur dirty in 2 years there probably not guna be there so it isnt guna hurt to trust & if they do you wrong its more of a lesson for you. the more wrongs you do the more rights you learn...it kinda all goes back to the whole "practice makes perfect" you trust someone and they fuck you ovr, now you no wat u did & didnt do rong...nxt time u tht much smarter & kloser to reaching a perfect way to trust someone. a perfect way of detecting a potential trustee. when u lay with someone tht meens something to you & u feel compfortable..its the trust tht use builded tht u rely on for the compfort.
js a quick postt...

perfection?

nobodies perfect[hint hint]...but when we look at are flaws & down areselves on those just adds more to the "nobodies perfect" thing.. still following me?
ok good, but what if we fix our flaws that we have, wud we then not be perfect for the world...but self perfection? wud we have tht if we got rid of all our flaws?
....well some ppl like myself take in the flaws & go worry about the strong points...no point in fixing something thats alredy low, so why not work on making high "highs" higher? sounds like common sense right? well it is.
alot of ppl say they wudnt change themselves for the world, even with females rely low self esteem and at times depression of there flaws.
still with me? good :) lol
but as a guy, i kan speek for myself when i say im more then happy with who i am, i mean yea theres things i wana change, but if i change them then im changing who i am as a prsn & i dnt think im redy to do tht anytime soon.
girls will bug about there boobs not being big enuf..i no it doesnt bother them, but if it causes u to fele insecurity whenever a guy stares at u & u think there staring at ur flaws then thts a problem. yea, its normal bkus ur nervous..but still....in my opinion everyones mind frame shud be if someone cant fuck wit them for who they are dont fuck wit them period.
just a quick vent